Just Bitter Sweet

I wouldn’t really call it ‘progress’. But there had been developments. We had small talks left and right, talks that he asked me to AVOID bringing up. Pero kasi, there are going to be times na kelangan kong tanungin lalo na kapag I’m getting frustrated kasi I’ll be getting emotional or needy… kasi the feelings don’t just bounce back. He has limits and he explained them as fairly as he can, even considering how I would feel kaya ingat na ingat siya magsalita.

Jp and I watched Aiza Seguerra’s concert at the Metro Bar just recently.  Her concert were all OPMs and it was amazing! She was amazing! Not all singers can bring me to tears, but all her chosen songs were delivered with a message. And I was able to get the message of the songs. I think Jp did, too because that same night, he opened up. And the day after and the after that, we were texting as often as we can. There had been no I love you’s coming from him YET, just me, but there came smileys, and hugs and good mornings and good nights…. and it was great!!! Baby steps were walking… and small talks were working… and I am happier.

From that evening, everything seemed lighter… enjoyable… refreshing. I felt God’s presence that everything will be alright. Times are tough, tides are high… and that it’s okay. I chose to love Jp, and difficulties will come more and more trials will not back off and still I can feel His presence, telling me that it’s okay. 

I really hate to remember all the nasty things that happened between us. I’ll just leave them all behind and bring with me the good memories and lessons that I’ve learned. And be happy. And make him happy. I am happy.

Jp, I love you.